Jacob's 1st Birthday

My baby turned 1 on Monday and is finally walking. He took forever to decide to walk Alex walked at 9 months and Ashley at 10. I thought Jacob might be delayed but he actually just prefers to be carried everywhere. I can't believe he is a year already. We had a great birthday party at Chuck E Cheese for him on Saturday. He had so much fun especially the cake part he made a pretty good mess. When Chuck E Cheese came by to see the birthday boy he started to cry. I guess he is just like his mom was afraid of Chuck E Cheese. When he got home we put a blanket on the floor and put him in his high chair and he made an even bigger mess, right before he was done daddy shoved his face in the cake. On Monday his actual birthday I took him to a free playday at Gymboree he had so much fun. I was thinking about signing him up, but I think I will have to sign myself up for Jazzercise instead. The other 4 kids are doing great no more problems with Alex. They are getting ready to go off track and we will be going camping for 2 weeks I wonder if I can handle it without my internet. We'll see.

Another Bad Day

I was able to get through 24 hours without a computer. It was difficult and I now know what addiciton feels like. Genaro said I was worse than a drug addict going through withdrawl. You never know how much you depend on the computer until you can't use it. Yesterday it was windy and my leg hit the metal side of the desk and I got shocked, the cords for the mouse and keyboard were also touching the metal and the computer froze and made a loud humming noise so I shut it off and when I turned it back on the mouse and keyboard were dead. Luckily I was able to buy a new mouse and key board and everything is working again today. As I was in the garage looking for a mouse to try out Ashley told me Alex and his friend were playing with fire on the side of the house. I go to the side of the house and Alex is running away and his friend is standing in a pit with a bunch of wood and sticks on fire next to the gas meter. I grab the hose and a few minutes later the fire is out, and there is so much smoke I can barely even see across the street. I don't know what to do with that kid anymore he is at the age where he knows what is right but peer pressure gets to him. Everything was great at the beginning of the school year he was in a class with 15 of the top 5th and 6th graders in the school and he loved it but a few weeks after the school year started they had to put all the 5th graders in another class because they needed an overflow class for 6th graders. So Alex got put into a class that he does not like with the friends I don't like him to hang around. . I am ready to pack up my trailer and move to the middle of nowhere. The thing that really upset Alex was that Jacob was on the other side of the wall playing with his toys when they started the fire. I just hope he will finally learn to stand up for himself and when the neighbor comes up with another bright idea like this he either stops him or tells someone. He knows what is right and I don't even want to think of what could have happened if that fire got out of hand with Jacob on the other side of that wall. We went through another bad choice that Alex and the neighbor made a few weeks ago. Hopefully he will look for other friends to play with at school it is just so hard when the kid right next door is such a bad influence. Well I am going to wrap this up I would like to take a nice long bath before bed. If anyone has any advice on this situation I would love to hear.

Drama 1-16-09

What a day I had yesterday. It started out with the 2 kids down the street coming over for a ride to school, and they tell me how Alex ding dong ditched their house the day before and that he shot his air soft gun at their window. Alex knows he is not allowed to go down the street without asking me and I saw him outside on that day and he straight out lied to me and said he did not go down the street ( I can't stand kids who lie). So I send him to his room I don't even yell or spank i just tell him how dissapointed I am with him and that I always brag about how great he is and he goes and lies to me and shoots an air soft gun at the neighbors window (It was an accident though he meant to hit the door). So I am crying and all stressed out because our neighbor was very upset and i am not used to being embarrassed by my kids. Needless to say the air soft guns have been taken away and Alex's little bit of freedom he did have is now taken away. So I decide to go shopping to feel better. I didn't feel like talking to anyone so I turned the ringer on my phone off when I get home from shopping my stepdad comes over and says the school called him since they couldn't get ahold of me and Alex has a temperature and is not feeling good, so I ask him if he can pick Alex up because Jacob is asleep. Alex comes home and I realize he is sick because he was so stressed out that he upset me. He takes a nap on the couch and at 3:25 I get in the car to pick up the girls I pull out of the driveway and notice I have a flat tire. I call my sister to get the girls. She can't find them at school, so she drives over to my house and on the way she sees them walking with the neighbors. Ashley said she was scared because she didn't know where i would pick them up at so they decided to walk home. Anyways the afternoon goes o.k and then in the evening Ashley tells me that a parent at school told her she was rude because her daughter was not invited to a birthday that Ashley said she was having. First off Ashley was not even having a birthday party. I was thinking about having 2 of her cousins and a friend from school come spend the night but nothing was even planned yet. So I get upset again and am not able to sleep because of this. I called the parent this morning and cleared up the drama but I am not used to having girls and having their friends going home crying and the parents getting so involved over first grade drama. My kids all know there are parties that they won't be invited to and that it is o.k. because you can't invite the whole school to a birthday party. It was just another crazy day that I felt like I neede to write about to get it off my chest.
I feel much better getting that off my chest maybe I can get some sleep now.

January 9, 2009

Well it is the begining of a new year, and to me the new year is just another day not much to celebrate (heck you can get drunk and party any night). But I am feeling my life is starting to head in a different direction. I think I may be stepping away from my life at PTA and MOMS Club and heading in another direction to try to find myself and feel better about myself. I have been working out nearly everyday since the begining of January, and I hope to join Mom 2 Mom at Crossroads Church at the end of this month. I am actually going to go to church with my friend Kelly this Sunday. I have not been to church since high school. I feel I need to make a big change in my life and this seems to be the direction that feels right for me right now. Although I am nervous about going to church especially since I have never really been before. I am pushing myself and I won't let myself back out.

The kids are back in school and me and Jacob are getting back to a good routine. I really don't like change and once I get used to them being home. They go back to school and I have to start over again, so I am hoping for a traditional school schedule next year especially since Alex will be in Jr. high soon and that is there schedule. Ashley's 7th birthday is coming up on the 15th. We will probably have a small family dinner with presents. I can't wait she should be very excited about her gifts. Today Jacob turned 10 months old. I can't believe how fast time is going, we are getting ready to plan his first birthday. Well that is about it for my first blog.